Being Wendy.

I've been looking over at people I went to school with. So many of them have changed and some of them are so different to how I remember them. I find it amazing how much so much people have changed in 10 years. And how little I've changed, I've just become more mature. I looked at some old photographs and I can honestly say one thing, I had to grow in to my features and to be honest I was a weird looking kid!

But my personality is the biggest thing about me to not change too much. I'm still scatterbrained at times and very clumsy, as well as shy around new people and I can be highly strung sometimes. But under that, despite everything, I'm not cruel and jaded, I still do what I can to help people and when I get to know them, I can be very kind, gentle and friendly. I still listen to the same things I did 10 years ago. I still dress how I like and wear clothes I would have worn then and my hair, well that just carries on being dyed whatever colour takes my fancy.

Maybe I reached an adult level of maturity at a young age. I could always talk to adults better than people my own age because I never found them as intimidating as I found other kids. I started writing and answering little notes to game characters because I could talk to them about anything and they'd never tell a soul. I think I always felt like I never belonged as a child and even now I wonder whether I am where I need to be. The only difference is that now, I've learned to accept that no matter what, I am never going to understand a lot of people, nor that I want to, and only a few people will ever get to know and understand me in turn. I'm actually OK with that because chances are, I won't like a lot of people.

I'm proud to have kept that individuality. It's what makes me who I am today, even if that's an eccentric and crazy person. To me, that is the whole point of being who I am and anyone who doesn't like me can sod off really because I'm not going to run away and I'll carry on proving that I am the person I can be proud of.

Loves
Wendy xx