OK so I have been quite absent again which is a sign really of how I have been feeling. I woke up about a week ago with pains in my back, a temp and just generally felt like utter shit frankly. All I did from last Thursday to yesterday was sleep. And I mean really sleep. I had all the classic symptoms of an old adversary, something that made my teenage years frankly the most uncomfortable that one can be when battling this viral infection. I am talking about, of course the teenage nemesis, Glandular Fever.
So I had this not so wonderful combination of Glandular Fever, food poisoning because of a frankly poorly kept kitchen AND I find out to boot that I have a wonderful and somewhat painful kidney infection. The cause of 2 of these problems? Somebody got complacent. AGAIN?! I mean, how many times do I have to get sick before he can LEARN that dirty kitchen = I GET SICK!!! I find it so frustrating at times and in some ways, I wish that we could swap for one whole week and he could actually see first hand what I go through and how he could, if he wanted to, actually take the steps to stop it happening time and again. I guess its up to me to pick up the slack and remind him that it needs doing or I will get really REALLY ill.
So the other day I went out with Penny, I love our outings, they're lovely and they really make me feel less, well contained in my home. I was in a lot of pain and discomfort and kept suffering dizzy spells or that feeling that I was going to be sick. OK so all I have truthfully eaten today was a concoction of random but lovely foods, but there has been nothing else thats really tempted my appetite and because I starved all day, my old friend and demon started to pester me. I remembered the 3 month crash diet that I ended up on because of my appendix and how skinny I was at a measly 7 stone. Maybe a part of me wants to do that all again even though it was killing me. I just felt so vulnerable when it came to my weight recently.
Not helped by the fact that I have barely been able to eat anything. Even a small meal has been too much for my stomach to handle. I feel full or nauseous, and I can't even drink much which is really weird. I have no reason as to why I just don't feel like eating. I just didn't feel up to it.
Maybe this will pass?
4 years ago