I have been quiet again recently, not because I feel antisocial or taciturn, but more because I have been just trying to give myself a bit of time to rest, recover and make sure everything is in order. I think I knew I was clinging on by the skin of my teeth by Thursday, but me being me, I really didn't want to accept it. I keep telling myself that there is worse out there and I even got a little tough on myself. It did leave me exhausted but all I wanted to do was help Becky as she hadn't been too well herself. Admittedly her infection is different to mine and is clearing up, mine isn't and it was just getting more out of hand.
I woke up on Thursday having not slept well and in pain. I wanted to get through it all and then I could be focused and ready to take care of my friend for a bit. I'd been out of breath for most of the day, but by the time I was ready to say "Right, its happening" I was too exhausted to really care too much. It turned out that not only did I have another case of pneumonia (we have no idea now where it keeps coming from, but we have some suspicions) coupled with pleurisy. Both are unpleasant as they are, but together the combination is nothing short of agonising. Every breath feels like you're being hit, and even resting a hand on the area is excruciating.
Even the smallest of tasks is exhausting right now (I have almost dozed off twice now while writing this entry) so forgive me if this update is only short. I hope to do another one later, maybe once I feel less worn out.
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