I have been napping a lot recently. For no other reason than my health problems are exhausting. I'm really contending against some rather intense issues and they can take a lot of work to keep them all balanced, from taking 21 different medications in a carefully devised regime to getting enough rest and appropriate nutrition. Its a delicate balance to keep but one we manage all the same.
Knowing that a number of things can't be magically cured is rough but it made me stronger as a person because I had to learn my way around them. It has been difficult to figure out and sometimes I feel quite unhappy but I am coping. I just have to remember to take it one step at a time rather than trying to get it right straight away. Being me is a big job and I wouldn't have been given it if there was ever any doubt that I'd do it. Even if I struggle sometimes.
I am struggling a bit but admitting that isn't me being weak. It's me being strong enough to reach out and say "I can't do this by myself." and to be frank, its not a bad thing to do when you think about it. Its sad that so many other people are too proud to ask for help and then end up suffering as a direct result of that.
As for the here and now, I am happy with how things have progressed in the last couple of weeks and I hope things continue to grow and mature. I also hope that no more wasps decide to sting me. I have had 2 this year, one had my finger and today one decided that the heel of my hand looked like a nice place to stick its stinger. I wouldn't have minded but I am allergic to the stings and they make me swell up and it bloody hurt!