I've probably been at my drawing for over a week now. Its coming out really lovely and it has been a labour of love. Drawing as a hobby has been one thing that has kept me sane over the last few years. It was hard to retrain my right hand after breaking it but I believe that it has meant that I can redevelop my own style and I like it a lot more than my old style.
My obvious influence is Nomura. I was blown away by his art for the Final Fantasy series. I also have a bit of Masashi Kishimoto (who works on the Naruto books) and Hiromu Arakawa (the lady who gave us Fullmetal Alchemist). I think that it was a happy accident that I broke my hand because had I not done so, I would have never rehabilitated my hand and never produce some of the best art I've ever done. Maybe it was worth 6 weeks of pain and annoyance (and going to fracture clinic every week), but its not something I would want to do again.
I'm getting through things in a better way. I think my attitude of trying to see the positive side of life has been key to making the best of a bad situation. So many people play victim and frankly its stupid and actually quite selfish. The way I see it, no one person is any more a victim than anyone else. Its all down to how you deal with things and how you see yourself.
Some people feel sorry for me because I'm only in my 20s and I've put up with so much. The way I look at it,sympathy is a burden which no one needs. Honestly, what is having people being all "poor you" really going to achieve? It doesn't fix the problems and it doesn't help to wallow in your misery like a pig in shit.
I like to find better ways to spend time with and it does help. Whether it's something around the home or a personal project, it keeps me busy and keeps my depression under control. Inactivity can actually be worse for you than anything else. It's just a shame how much it takes out of you. After drawing I had to lie down and rest to try and reduce my fever.
I'm at the tail end of the infection but I still feel very tired so I may go to sleep soon. Just for a nap mind to get some strength back.