Just lately, I have been so much brighter and happier as a person. I mean I have finally managed to sort my own life out and it's so weird, I feel like I am 23 and not a pensioner. Even if I am feeling a bit crap today and have to see the doctor at 3. I would be lying if I said I was in a good, can be bothered, sort of place, but I know that the problems I need to see him about are things that really won't go away in a hurry on their own and it would be foolish of me to not get things seen to.
Its all the usual suspects really, hacking cough, cold sweats and coughing up gunk that seems to match the colour of an X-box game box perfectly. Add in a rash on my hands that is driving me up the wall and a sore back which makes walking a painful prospect. My peak flow was below 200 l/min and my body feels just drained and tired which would suggest to me that the stress of everything that happened recently could have run me down and infection, as it always seems to, has set in.
As always however, I am refusing to let the person, who has caused all of the stress and the rest of it, win and get me down. I refuse to let them hurt me or get to me anymore and they should never have gotten to me in the first place. I'm better than that. Maybe I am just over thinking the whole thing and thats how he is getting to me.
I guess today is one of those days where I need to really kick myself in to gear and stop worrying. I know the doctor will be glad to catch up with me and make sure everything is OK. My worry about the pred thing is probably unfounded and he will probably help me with it. I mean it has been a time of major stress and I have suffered as a result. My peak flow is frankly crap and I have been hitting the nebuliser more than I would care to admit to myself and this rash on my hand is maddening. I woke up at 5 this morning because it was itching and sore. Then proceeded to cough and wheeze for a while, so I think this is a good time to get help.
I'll probably post again when I know more and my heads a little less... well... muddled.
3 years ago