The Christmas season is well and truly upon us. I am really looking forward to it, especially as we're spending it as a couple this year, rather than last years wash out. Christmas at Steve's dad's, food poisoning, severe bacterial infection of my lungs resulting in pneumonia and a horrible whiplash injury from a car incident that was from an idiot creeping over a roundabout in the ice so that he could gawk at an accident that happened. Add in arguements about money, painkillers and anything else that happened. It was horrid.
I have already had the best Christmas present I could have received. No, it wasn't a material thing. It was something more poignant. We managed to break the cycle of negative mentality in Steve. Working out the use of mind control so that he persistently continued with negative and unpleasant behaviors. Since starting the Sertraline, its like I have my Steve back and its such a good thing. Yes there was the unpleasant side effect of panic attacks to start with but when you have been stuck in one attitude for a long time, I guess its hard to stop straight away and not feel a bit confused.
In myself, I feel better as I have been able to return to my old love of writing. I may never make millions with it, but it is such a relaxing way of spending my time. I spend most of my time in Midgar musing and cooking up my stories, but there we go. I would love to get some of my work published and share my writing with everyone who wants to read. I have an imagination that can make a scene come alive in my head, and it really keeps me happy.
3 years ago