Snow and an Unhappy Chest...

It's snowing here, and although I love looking at and taking pictures of it, my chest has decided that it isn't as enthusiastic. But then again my chest and I could never be accused of seeing eye to eye at the best of times. I had planned to go and grab a loaf of bread and some snacks from the local shop, but decided that perhaps that would be foolhardy. It's far too cold right now and I really wouldn't want to have to phone Becky with a "Sorry, I've been admitted again..." as we have been looking forward to next weekend for a while now.

I would have loved to have gotten out in the snow and in to the woods for some cosplay photos but I think for now that is going to have to wait. Not unless I want what seems to be just a cough and a cold to get worse. I'm thinking my best bet would be to stay in right now. Besides its warm in here and theres plenty of things that need doing around the house. And of course 5 lovely guinea pigs and a rat to keep me company.

The younger guinea pigs are starting to settle in nicely. Tenzou is starting to come out of his shelf and is a right little sweetie. He loves to explore the bed and burrow in to my duvet. He had been bitten by either Gaara or Zell (more than likely Zell actually as he is the more boisterous one) and has a little mark on his ear, he let me clean it without fuss and accepted a piece of Broccoli as a reward. I did see if I could house Tenzou in with Gizmo and Kadaj again, but after about 10 minutes (a record with Kadaj really) he was all fluffed up and making all kind of angry noises so I had to take Tenzou away before Kadaj turned psychotic on me. Not the first time he's gone ape-shit over other guineas. I still have the scar from when I separated him and Hope, and Hope being blind managed to latch himself on to my finger leaving a deep wound that nearly needed stitches.

I brought them all some toys this week as well. Kadaj now likes to gnaw the chain on his gnaw garland while Tenzou has taken to playing "nudgeball" with his rattle-ball. It's so cute to watch this little black creature nudge this ball around the cage then popcorn with sheer pleasure from the sound it makes. Kadaj and Gizmo do have a rattle-ball and Gizmo likes to throw it around which is funny to watch. It does one's morale good to see animals looking happy and healthy. Makes me feel like I'm looking after them correctly and that they are growing to be happy, active pets.

I finally managed to open the living room blind for a while today. Usually I feel too exposed with it open, this was part of my PTSD and I was becoming scared and paranoid about other people, and particularly the threat of others. It's been 2 days on the stronger dose of Seroquel and I am starting to finally calm down. Not helped obviously when I get so tired that I can't keep my eyes open, I tend to become easily upset and stressed when that happens. Care needs to be taken in future to prevent this from occurring.

I am also actually looking forward to starting art therapy, the waiting is long, but it will be a good way of working through everything thats bothering me and a good step towards healing and becoming the person I know I can be. I guess I need to just follow Becky's advice and rather than take everything on all at once, just break it down and do it bit by bit. Little by little. Step by step.

I'll phone in a verdict!

Loves
Wendy xx