Me being me and always wanting to look on the bright side of every situation seems to be paying off. My confidence has seriously improved and I am finding myself wanting to go out more and more as time goes on. Seeing my friends is the best part of my day if I may be honest. But I have become more interested in meeting new people. Going out with Cat on Friday was hard on me admittedly but really what is easy and worth it? I had to get out for a few hours after finding my little baby had gone to be with the angels, but deep down I think it was what he would have wanted me to do.
Patch saved me from so much and I know that him being free and away from any suffering is a good thing. Such a compassionate and dear creature who loved nothing more than to cuddle up to me or listen to me read aloud to him. He used to purr at me when I read something and he showed me that I was actually needed and a worthwhile person. To see a friend who hadn't seen me in over a year was lovely and he commented on how much more like my old self I am, lost a LOT of weight and have my shape back and have still got THAT smile that seems to light up a room. I want to carry this on. I feel younger and full of life and that essence of being a 20-something who has been making it on her own with little more than a song in her heart and compassion and empathy towards every other soul out there.
This is the real me.
It's just taken me this long to figure it out that I was more than I was becoming. So, so, SO much more and my inner strength and courage is what keeps that personal growth going. I miss you though, my little sofa-spud and I thank you so much for showing me the real Wendy and letting me be your Mummy for the years we had together and I hope you did meet up with Alphonse and Hope ( who are probably driving you mad by pulling your beard out or humping you!! )
2 years ago