Seems to sum it up really doesn't it? When me and Becky get together its just hours of random but really funny in jokes between us. From laughing at saying words like "Seed" and "Plant" in funny voices to night time games of "Truth or Dare". This is what I have always wanted, a housemate who is as crazy as I am and doesn't mind when they hear me shouting "OH FUCK YOU THEN!!" at the X Box because some other player has wiped the floor with me (admittedly I don't wear my headset when playing some games, I don't swear unless I know no one else has to listen) and then I get up and pulverize them.
If you had been a visitor in April or early May last year, this house was so different. There were no sounds of laughter and glee, but the sounds of arguments and my own mental health slipping in to disrepair. I was so different back then. I was so wrong and not myself. And I hated that person that I was becoming, a person who needed others to survive and not moving forwards. In a nutshell, back then I had given up and I had lost faith in myself. Having my world turned upside down the way it had been 2 months ago has actually helped me realise a lot about who I really am.
Yes there are days when I can't really do much because my illnesses have left me exhausted, but I still try my hardest. I don't spend all my day in the bedroom, hiding from the people outside and I guess I have been trying to get out of the flat more and more as time goes on. I have had a period of personal growth and self-rediscovery and this has been incredible because I have finally reconnected with my 18 year old self. That nuts young girl who had her shoes pinched by Ant and Kris while she was riding on Mike's back (such a fond memory actually) or chasing Natty around the college. Being in a relationship that dragged me down aged me, and it was not a good look. At all.
3 years ago