Today I went to the cinema with JP, someone I have not known all that long but already he is a part of my extended family. He is a sweet kid and like me also suffers with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and like me has a passion for music and the arts.
He needed help to write some songs so I lent him my diary from the last year. In this notebook, I used to write down some of my deepest and most personal thoughts, about myself, living with my illnesses and the people around me. Even about the times I did things to myself that were horrific from slashing myself open with a knife, to overdosing on painkillers and anti-psychotics (that resulted in one long night and a day in hospital, which I don't remember, but I remember that Steve was terrified). He wrote a letter in the back of it and it really made me smile and brought a happy tear to my eye. I wanted to share it with you, as it really was poignant.
Reading this diary has shown me so much about you, and the fact that not only were you happy for me to read it, but actually borrow it brings a smile to my face.
Admittedly, I haven't known you for very long, but hey! You don't have to know someone for YONKS to know know they are a decent person.
You have seemingly been through so much in your short life, yet through it all you are still here and I am glad you are!
This diary is inspiring. YOU ARE INSPIRING!
I hope very much to remain friends with you and Ste. If you ever need anything, let me know.
Anyways, I'm rambling a bit, so I'll wrap up now. Thanks for letting me read this.
Peace and Love
Good Ol' JP"
It gave me such a warm feeling to read this, along with other kind words said to me about my blog, my diaries and other ways I have expressed myself. I want to take the chance now to thank you all for finding something in my words and I hope you enjoy my writings for years to come.
Love you all so very much
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