Tomorrow is an appointment with my psychiatrist. The team have been exceptional in helping me come to terms with my mental health problems and helping me to control them better. Its been brilliant as it has helped me recover from some of the terrible things from the past and it has also enabled me to move on, growing as a stronger and more confident individual. There are days that are better than others admittedly, but then again when dealing with those things its kind of a given really.
I think my biggest worry is that my asthma may decide to give me one of it's trademark episodes. The thing with my asthma is that it is often volatile and always unpredictable, but such is a condition like this. Brittle asthma and "normal" (if such a term may be used) are so different in nature. I know first hand that when it chooses it's times to be awful there is absolutely nothing that can be done other than follow the protocols, take the right medicines and just try and take it as it comes. Its the only thing that can be done and I know that.
I never said any of this is easy. In fact I know its not easy. Theres been times of sadness and times of triumph. Days where I lost confidence and felt resigned to some kind of fate, but rather than wallowing in self pity, I actually decided that the best thing to do was to just keep going. And you know something, it's something I will continue to do.
3 years ago