Its been all go here recently and we have barely had chance to stop and smell the flowers with forms to fill in, things to sort out and the like. I think the hardest thing I have had to do is budgeting. So far we are essentially living on one person's worth of benefit until we can get sorted out completely, and like most things, this takes a long time to sort out so some of the less vital outgoings have had to go on the wayside for a few weeks. I have been paying the important stuff like rent, TV licence, gas/electric and food bills, but things such as my entertainment budget have had to go on the back burner.
This has been a good thing though and I have been spending more time doing things that usually get ignored, enjoying the small array of hobbies I have and actually playing games I have already played and enjoying them anew. Even some games that we manage to enjoy together as a group. Luckily the debt owed to Redditch YMCA has been finally cleared. I'm glad of that particularly as now I don't have to have that hanging over my head and its done and dusted. It's behind me now. Along with a lot of things. In retrospect none of the things that plagued me in recent years were not really that important and one thing I have learned about myself is that only I can make a life for myself and thats whats important to me.
Life should be lived. Not hidden away. Cowering away in corners doesn't make things better, and not facing one's fears can just allow them to run your life. Out of everything, the most important things I have achieved are wonderful friends, freedom from things that seemed to loom over me like a bad omen and of course a new and more positive outlook. No one and nothing will ever take that away from me. And that is something i am proud of, but I am grateful to though to the people who helped me and made this possible. Their love and compassion, as well as their patience with me at times has been great as it helped me pick myself back up, tear down the past and start over, building from the lessons learned.
So what happens now? Well I am keeping on building on this and keeping on with getting myself back on track. I will update you all as I go.
Loves
Wendy xx
Quick Update
9 years ago
good to see that ya puttin in the effort to try and put things behind ya.
ReplyDeletetrust, gettin to do things finally is a great feelin in its self. I have only just come to realise this.
you seem to have really have gone thru a lot [yes i red through ya entries from the past month]
seein as though ya have carers, ya must fee like ya behind bars half the time but seein that ya also have time to do things, ya seem pretty happy.
good luck to ya.