During my hospital stay, I watched a film that brought back a lot of wonderful memories of spending time with someone who I always looked up to, even if at times it didn't look like it. Whenever I think of the times we spent just talking about things or all the times he was there for me, I smile. I'm actually not ashamed at all to admit this, in fact quite the opposite, but I really do love my eldest brother, Richard and he has always been one of the strongest male role models in my life.
I have 2 brothers, Richard and Stephen. Richard, 4 years my senior, lived with our Nan and Aunt, because of reasons I don't really wish to say, and we used to see them every Saturday, and Stephen, who is 2 years older than I am, lived with my parents and me. Stephen and I never really saw eye to eye and I think the main problem is that we just ran out of things to talk about and both grew apart, not unlike our dad and his elder sister. My mum and dad weren't very "touchy-feely" with us, but our nan was. I used to prefer it at my nans because I felt loved and wanted there. Richard was a much more approachable brother and would never raise his hand towards a younger sibling that he believed was stepping out of line.
One thing that helped Richard and I to bond was that at the age of 9, I became interested in "The Transformers". It was something that we always had around us as kids (Richard and Stephen had loved it for most of their lives) and it was only natural that I was going to become just as curious as my brothers about it as time progressed. "Transformers the Movie" is probably one of those films that I can recite word for word, even now. Stephen had a copy of it on video (which he gave to me when he was bored of it) and I would sit and watch it as many times as I could because I really loved the animation and the story. I felt drawn in and even as a child, I remember how scary I found Unicron and how he ate other planets. I remember Richard gave me this Ladybird book of the film and read it to me a few times.
The one thing that does make me remember with a smile is when I used to go to my nans after school as my mum was working late. I'd had a rather horrible day at school and had been feeling really sorry for myself and wanted to cry. Richard took me to his room and we watched Transformers together, after a while I started to open up and I talked to Richard about everything and I told him what had happened at school. I found that as I got older, I was more able to speak to Richard. Yeah we had arguments but that's brothers and sisters for you.
It's his birthday this week and I have something to send to him and I wanted to tell the world that I am not ashamed to say that I love my brother.
3 years ago