I'm allowing myself a little bit of downtime today, partly because the doctor and Becky have advised, partly because even after food shopping and having a nice rumble through town, lugging a chest infection around has left me feeling a bit exhausted and if my experience of chronic chest infections has taught me anything, it is that if you feel like you need it, then you probably should go to bed and stay there for as long as you need to. No one ever said that life would be easy. You just have to learn to make the best of things and do what you can or feel up to.
I love going out with Becky to our favourite coffee place for a coffee and panini and to do something with someone I care deeply for. Even though we don't have any blood relation, we are like sisters and we can always understand what the other is thinking. The one thing I like more than having a care agency coming around is that Becky and I have a good rapport. I think its because I am her only client and she gets more than a couple of hours here and there to work with me and she doesn't have to leave for the next name on the list. It allows us the chance to have a relationship on a personal basis which in our situation is very important. For me to accept someone on that kind of level takes a lot of trust, something I don't often give people, as well as these all important bonding activities. Things like playing a game together or going out to feed the ducks or even just watching a film together.
I recently showed Becky a film that I really like called "Bicentennial Man" with Robbin Williams. It's a touching story about a robot and his relationship to a family over 200 years and his quest to become a human being. It calls in to question the idea of humanity and what it truly means to be a human. It's a really beautiful film and one I whole heartedly recommend. It has moments of humour, happiness and warmth as well as some of the saddest and most touching moments you can see. The only other film that made me cry like this was Marley and Me. And let's face it, I'm a softy at heart and love a good weepy film. I've been watching a lot of Disney recently to, old favourites and discovering some I'd not seen. I doubt anyone could really hate Disney films as there is always something for everyone.
I'm set up with meds and a comfortable place to rest for now so I'm hoping that I'll improve over the next few days.