Its been nearly a year since that first time that I went to Blackpool for the first time since childhood and I saw Jace for the very first time. We'd been talking online and on the phone for a while and I.think I knew from those first few messages that this was going to be something magical and one of the best things to ever happen to me. It seems both weird and wonderful to think that I could be so happy. </p>
<p>Becky and Jace both see me for who I am, sometimes its like we don't always realise what makes me so different but its liberating. Like I can live my life without being tied down with barriers and make my way around anything that tries to hold me back. Love is supposed to make you feel free and like no matter what or who tries to stand in your way, that nothing will succeed in bringing you down. </p>
<p>Nothing or no one can take this away from me. I have wonderful friends and a boyfriend I adore. I have a nice roof over my head and even if we don't live in affluence or with riches to spare, we do well because we have something that doesn't cost anything but it's worth more than all the gold or trinkets in the world. That thing is love and compassion, a family who chose each other. </p>
<p>The only thing that kind of bugs me is that we aren't spending the day together but when one of you works its understandable and we see each other as often as possible. And when we are together its wonderful and we feel so happy together. I am kind of glad that Jace hasn't been unlucky enough to witness my asthma at its worst. Not that I worry about how he'd cope, afterall he's seen what attacks are like but its a whole new ballgame entirely when we have to get help. That happens on average once or twice a month right now.
Last night was one such occasion where we didn't realise that it was what it was until I was fighting hard against it. I think that I was retaining as a last resort to put it off. I'm exhausted today as expected but its not something that I can't deal with. If anything I can use the time to watch as much anime as I like. So for now, I'm going to chuck my feet up and get lost in some other worlds!