I guess recently I have been smiling a lot more. I have had some amazing things happen over the last few months, since me and Tom split up (I know now why and in a way I am glad I still have my amazing friend) I have had to learn to deal with painful infections and trips to hospital on my own and it has made me feel stronger for it. I've met someone new and we are getting close. I have a wonderful adoptive sister who reminds me so much as me when I was that age.
I also think back to how I was when I was 16. When I left home, I was such a naive kid. I never really understood what life meant and I thought the worst thing ever was not having money to go out, how wrong I was. I have to say that developing my asthma as bad as I did, I learned a hell of a lot. I learned perspective and I learned how to understand others. My natural empathy towards others means that I make friends easily and the ones I make, I tend to keep. I have learned a lot of things about myself and other people and I have had to take a lot on board, but you know something, although I grew up in Stafford, I think I matured and became an adult here in Redditch.
In the next weeks Becky is embarking on her own path and coming up here to live with me. She is going to be my live-in carer and will be able to help me with a lot of things which I openly admit were problematic because of my conditions. For her, the main thing this will give is an amazing life experience. Learning about how to look after me and what my conditions entail. It is also a big responsibility and I really am very grateful towards her for making the offer to do this with me. The only way I can truly thank her is to ensure that her biggest dreams become reality. I owe her that much as she is selflessly dedicating her time in this way.
I have a few things coming up in the next few weeks that are exciting, including finally getting to meet and go on a date with someone who I have been talking to for a while now and have gotten really close to. His name is Jace and we are going to the Birmingham Kitacon 2012. To get tickets to this event will set you back nearly £50 (for the three days) and we both had to go on the waiting list to get accepted. We got accepted yesterday and now we're both planning to go, in costume to the event. Its going to be a LOT of fun and the costume me and Jace are planning well, we're going to be a combination.
But more on that later!
When I turned 16, I thought I knew what life was all about.
3 years ago