Have you ever noticed how people only accept sickness from certain types of people? The small sickly child who no one questions about having cancer or the people who make the diseases look like they're fashionable. Kylie Jenner in a wheelchair, the shoot that offended a lot of us. Because people would have seen her in the chair and how glamorous that looked and completely brush off those of us who use wheelchairs for real. Wheelchairs are not a fashion statement. I have been in a wheelchair properly now for 2 years. The hardest thing about going from "normality" to life on wheels was the level of denial I had. I didn't want to accept that now I would need a wheelchair to get around and even the simple stuff leaves me tired and breathless. It isn't ideal and sometimes I find it rather annoying because I can't do things like I used to. At first I kind of felt like I had been robbed of my independence and then as I got myself used to it, I realised that actually the wheelchair means that I have more independence than I have had in years. But with everything that happened when I was little and what we know now, I think I managed well to stay mobile for 26 years and maybe it was for the best that I accepted the help being offered and stopped struggling for the sake of my pride.
able to help another person in a similar position as I was in a few
years back has been one of the things that has really made a difference.
And after all the help they gave to me while moving, it was the least I
could do really. Since getting my powered wheelchair my life has been
so much happier and then getting oxygen as well has made all the
difference in the world. Funnily enough, with the oxygen, I find that I
am a lot more lucid and feel less like I have crawled out of a pit
backwards. Its been with those and the love and support from friends and
family that I have been able to get my independence back from what it
was. And it was because of that that I realised my old flat just wasn't
right for me anymore.
Don't get me wrong, I did like
my old flat and after 5 years it had been made a home. But I don't think
I ever made it a permanent home for myself. The place was damp and
mouldy, I couldn't get in and out of the kitchen and couldn't prepare my
own food or drink. The living room was narrow and always felt
cluttered. And I won't even begin when it comes to the game we had with
the bathroom! I never really liked the area and never really felt safe
or happy there. It's hard to explain but Abbeydale is a bit of a
difficult area to live in. I have been in my bungalow for 3 weeks now
and I really like it here. It's so much different here that it is like
being in a whole other town! I won't say where it is for privacy's sake
but my friends know where to find me so thats OK and the people I don't
want knowing will never find out because they have no reason to.
still in the process of unpacking which is a bigger job than I ever
thought of. I am getting it done gradually and I am setting up my home
to be exactly as I like it. I haven't blogged due to being so busy but
its a new year and a really good new start for me as well.
3 years ago