For life's little ups and downs.

A rather quirky, funny and sometimes daunting look in to the life of someone who has a lot of health problems but does their best to keep positive. Punctuated by guinea pigs, anime, superheroes, transforming robots and cross stitching.

I started this blog to tell my story, about who I am and what I do. On top of the health problems and raising awareness for those, I also use my blog as a way to help promote other causes, particularly ones which affect the most vulnerable. I live with a number of different and complex health problems but I refuse to let anything get me down. I know how it feels to be discriminated against or thrown aside. This is me. This is my life. I live it and do what I want with it. Nature sets the limitations. We set the boundaries.

About Me:

A blog about life. I live with Type 1 Brittle Asthma, Bi-Polar Disorder, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder as well as Various Allergies, Neutropenia, Crohns Disease (my IBS was rediagnosed as Crohns), Osteo and Rheumatoid Arthritis, PCOS and Osteoporosis and Heredetary Spastic Paraplegia. I have recently also been diagnosed with Sleep Apnea (which makes me stop breathing in my sleep) I live with these conditions, but I refuse to let them keep me down and out. I still try and make the most of my days despite being so poorly and having to rely on my wheelchair, nebulisers, nearly 50 pills a day and 2l/min of oxygen and CPAP.

I'll flap my broken wings and erase it all someday... You'll see.
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Friday, 28 January 2011

Getting back to normal(ish)...

Today is the first official day after being in hospital, and I have been trying to get back in to a more normal routine and pick up where I left off. Which I will openly admit is difficult for me at the moment as the smallest things are making me feel very tired.

I slept for 12 hours last night, and didn't even notice, until I was woken by a very small and very cute little animal coming to give me a cuddle. Hope is a little angel and he loves coming up and saying hello to me and curling up next to me. It  is very sweet and comforting really, knowing such a tiny little animal has adopted me as his surrogate mother. I moved over to get something last night and the little tinker came running up to me wheeking his little head off, clambering up on to Tigger and snuggling up in the crook of my arm. How cute!!

When I finally rolled out of bed, around 11, we went and got a few odds and ends from Iceland, we were running short on the basics which happens unfortunately and at least one of us needed to go, and well, I had spent the last 2 days lying around doing nothing so I thought that instead of just doing more laying around doing nothing, I would go too. It was harder work than I expected and I was shattered by the time I got back home, maybe I did do a bit too much too soon, but I like to test my boundaries from time to time. It is good to know where I stand and what I can do, rather than what I can't which gets depressing.

Hey ho, I am back home now and have decided to take to my bed for a while, catch up on TV I missed, do some reading (actually am enjoying the Metal Gear Solid novelization), Sudoku and other more sedentary pursuits, except maybe a band practice so long as I take it easy and be careful about my chest.

Loves
Wendy xx

Thursday, 20 January 2011

New Additions...

Although we will never forget our Alphonse and no one will ever truly replace him and the memories we have, we are happy to say we have opened our hearts to 2 new guinea pig pups who needed a home, someone to love them and a bigger brother. These are Hope and Gizmo.

Hope is my little pup. He is nosy, cute and a bit of a rascal. If it is not supposed to be explored, Hope will be there, exploring as always. I named him Hope as he gives us a feeling of just that. Hope. With a face like that, you would think that butter wouldn't melt in that mouth and I don't think anyone could resist those eyes or that one floppy ear and that other one that stands up! Gives him that look of "What?"

Inquisitive and maybe a little naughty, but that is our Hope.

Then there is Gizmo, a tan coloured Rex. He loves us so much and will sit there watching us curiously or purring at everything he sees or hears. His particular like, is to burrow in to things, be them shirts, arm-pits or anything else that he sees is warm and dark.

So, now were being kept on our toes by these adorable little things, and they definitely went some of the way to helping our hearts heal at last, even though the process of grief can be long and painful, we at least have some new friends to keep an eye on, and we know that wherever he is, Alphonse would have been proud of his mum and dad this week, just as we are so proud of him. He was a fighter to the end, and was so loved by everyone who knew him.

Patch has coped wonderfully as well, he looks after his pups and mothers them. He licks them clean, makes sure they're OK. He makes such a lovely big brother.

Loves
Wendy xx

Wednesday, 19 January 2011

Tribute to a cute and special little friend.

As my final way of saying goodbye to my little Alphonse, I wanted to share some of my favourite photos of him, from when he was a little pup, to just before his sad departure. Although he only lives for 18 months, he made a dent in our lives and anyone else who came in to contact with him. I thought this would be a good time to pay tribute to our Alphonse.

When we met, me and Steve were walking in to our local Pets At Home, it was a warm summer's day and we were looking at picking up a cage-mate for Patch, the tortoiseshell Rex I had adopted just 11 months before. As we rounded to the guinea pig enclosure, we could hear these 2 little piggies running around in circles. One was black with brown patches. The other was a black and white pig with the sweetest stripe down his nose and a look that said "Yeah, I'm gorgeous! But I will be a little shit!" We knew right away we wanted him. There is a joke in this story about how Steve got his 50p's worth. This was because I was 50p short at the time and he gave me his contribution. This was always a joke as we were always trying to work out what part of him 50p paid for! He lived his 1st night in this small hamster cage that we had, I know that sounds mean, but he was able to move around and he was comfortable until we could introduce him to Patch.

We were woken at 5 the next morning by the little guy squeaking for food and some fuss. He was a lively little thing.

Although we needn't have worried at all. Patch took to Alphonse like a duck to water, that night when I was taken ill I spent the following evening panicking as I had left Alphonse with Patch. I returned home and they were snuggled up together in the cage. They were thick as thieves ever since that point and one wouldn't be seen without the other. They really were like brothers.

Even as Summer turned to Autumn, their relationship grew more and more fantastic, and while I was facing my own demons, the two of them inspired me daily to carry on and keep getting stronger, both physically and emotionally.

Alphonse was growing up, and he was so inquisitive and full of life. Popcorning and chittering as he hopped around the room, often looking for things to either nibble or explore. He grew in to those massive eyes and ears and was starting to become a handsome creature.


He discovered a fondness for apples, banana skins and carrots. We actually reached a point where these couldn't be consumed in the flat without him squeaking and making a huge fuss. I was very sick myself by this point and spent most of my time sleeping. Patch and Alphonse were always there offering their love, support and comfort.

I was so thankful to have such special boys in my life and would often tell them this. And in their own way, they would reciprocate.

Life with Steve and the guinea pigs was so sweet and we hoped nothing would ever unseat us from this bliss.

The Christmas period came and went and although financially our Christmas was difficult, our little animals made it so much easier. Hugs don't cost a thing and we all really felt like a small family.

Then began 2010. It was a difficult year for many reasons, but Patch and Alphonse always made us smile when we felt careworn or just fed up of our situation. When I was signed off sick, I was then able to spend more time with my cherished piggies.

Alphonse was reaching maturity and he was just as playful and loving as he ever could be. Everytime I came home from anywhere, this little face would greet me. For such a small creature, his capacity for love was immense.

My favourite moment of 2010 was Christmas Eve, when I was preparing the sprouts and heard a chattering from the cage. I walked over and told them that they probably wouldn't like sprouts... Alphonse let out this massive "WHEEEEEEK!"

We laughed in to the small hours of Christmas morning. It was so funny as he used to peel off the leaves one by one and eat them, such a delicate little man.

He made us laugh so much.

He began 2011 as healthy and happy as any guinea pig could have been. Until that day when Steve's Dad had sent the kids round with some veg scraps. I don't actually think I said yes to them feeding something to the guinea pigs, as usually I would be very strict and would have washed it. When I saw the condition of the cabbage later, I was worried.

But by then, the damage was done. The cabbage was tainted with the deadly salmonella bacteria, from the kitchen at 118 Exhall Close. By the time it had incubated and Alphonse began to show any symptoms, it was already too late. The poor thing was so poorly. For nearly a week, I stayed with my pet and tried to nurse him back to health. By the time we went to bed on Monday, although the vet said he may not pull through, he seemed to be defying the odds.

This is the last picture of him, yes he wasn't looking as well as he could have been or had been in the past, but he was getting better. And we definitely didn't expect what happened next. All we knew was when Steve woke up on Tuesday morning, the poor little thing was lying there, crying in pain. The Vet suspects that his bowel perforated. Our little baby was in agony as his body was slowly poisoning him and we were powerless to stop it. Our brave little Alphonse clung on for 8 hours until his appointment. I didn't leave him for a moment and I did what I could to make him comfortable. It was at the Vets that I said that I didn't want him to suffer anymore, and we decided that, as crushing as it was, it would ultimately be kinder to have him put to sleep. The rest is history, as he nibbled my nose to say "goodbye".

Now you know Alphonse's story and how his life was cut so tragically short. All I ask now is that you (or anyone else) learn the lessons we had to learn the hard way:

1. Be careful about what you feed your pets. If you wouldn't eat it yourself, PLEASE don't feed it to your pet.

2. It is vital that ANY areas used to prepare food, especially if you prepare meat or other animal products or fish, are kept extremely clean. Salmonella can cause some vile symptoms and in a lot of cases, it can KILL.

3. Guinea pigs shouldn't eat cabbage. It can cause a fatal condition called Bloat. If in doubt, LEAVE IT OUT.

Loves
Wendy xx

Monday, 17 January 2011

I may not be religious...

But my Alphonse does need as much luck, good wishes and prayers as he can get. The news isn't looking too good, the Vet has doubts, as he has lost more weight and hadn't started eating for himself just yet. It is all riding on tomorrow's appointment. If there is no improvement then I need to make the toughest decision I think I ever could.

The sad reality is that we could really lose our little pig. If Alphonse hasn't started improving enough tomorrow, we will have to consider is all this really worth making such a sweet animal suffer. I think I would rather say goodbye and hold him as he goes than spend more time watching such a wonderful pet go downhill that bad. It is heartbreaking and I know it is really hurting him and I hate seeing him suffer like this. As much as it hurts, I would have to have him put to sleep.

I don't know if I am ready to say goodbye, but I love him WAY too much and I know I have to do whats right for my animal, even if it means heartbreak. This what love is, the willingness to let myself hurt so that something or someone that I love doesn't have to. Currently he is lying on the hay, dozing and getting some rest, although I think I managed to get 200-250ml of feed in to him, so thats a start.

It all rides on tomorrow.

Loves
Wendy xx

Sunday, 16 January 2011

Update...

Thanks to Martin, we managed to get Alphonse to the Vet Aid hospital in Oldbury (that was an interesting journey) where he was seen by a lovely vet. After a good examination, having his temp taken (poor thing was a little on the cold side, a sign his poor little body was starting to shut down) and a long chat, we found that our little piggie is suffering with a bowel infection. Luckily all he should need is some antibiotics, syringe feeding of some special food and plenty of love, affection and care. It does look optimistic, but it is thanks to our friends who have helped us through this.

In myself, I have been a bit on the tired side, but I have been way more invested in making sure my little one gets well again. My biggest worry at the moment will be my ESA assessment, although I have looked at the tariff of points, so hopefully they should see sense on how fragile my asthma can be. If not then I will be appealing and fighting this with every ounce of strength I have. I find the cutbacks that they are making, while most of which are a good idea and won't really cause too much trouble, but the idea of trying to get people like myself who cannot live a normal life due to illness to get in to dangerous jobs where their bodies would fail them is just vile.

I can't put in to words how thankful I am to groups like PDSA whose work runs entirely on donations from the public to help them. Without them, poor little Alphonse wouldn't be here now, they said if he hadn't been seen when he was, we would have almost definitely have lost him. I really do urge people to support groups like this whose only interest is to help the animals they treat.

Loves
Wendy xx

Tuesday, 9 November 2010

Furry Con Artists!

Yes, you did read that right. Right now, Patch is being a furry little con-artist. He does this daily, if someone moves near the cage, he begins to wheek loudly for more food. Regardless of whether we have fed him or not. So it comes down to either more food or fuss. It's all rather cute.

As for me, well, I've launched both a blog and website for my FF7 Fan-Fic, its only taken me 2 years to get to the point where I could do this and do it well. And I am currently working on some new odds and ends to jazz up this blog, so as they say, Watch This Space.

Loves

Wendy x

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